I figure this day was truly like any other. I awake to the same energy, I awake to the same 'me', yet I know something feels different within, something has switched and I'm not sure what. I realise I've been living these repeat episodes for so long now…..its the same actors and they're still playing the same roles. Today I decide to try something new. I know how I'm programmed to react, but today I may choose differently, today I will observe before I act.

I realise I chose the scenario's, I realise the lessons I'm trying to teach myself. In this moment I see the truth of all this. I claim responsibility for 'my' actions, others actions are not of my concern. Some are destined to continue the same patterns, they are choosing to play the cycle again. In my mind I am weary, in my heart I am strong. I've outgrown my old game, I desire to create something new, I'm seeking new players to play with now.

I can feel a stirring inside, can feel myself coming back to myself. I'm grounding this emotion, making sense of all that I feel. I 'choose' the easy life, who said this life was meant for struggle anyhow? I'm letting go, unwanted attachments easily fall away…..you can't contain me for my wish is not to be contained. I'm healing myself, I'm standing in my own space and I am healing myself.

So this day it was a special one, this day I re-created me. I said goodbye to my old friends, the curtain on those scenes has fallen, closure is my claim. Can taste the new, can sense the love inside. Soul is seeking to share, seeking to spread this virus to you. We all move on, we all know our scenery is a transitory affair, here today and gone tomorrow…..our task is to not get caught gazing, recognise, reflect and move on. Scenery is of the moment, 'know' that it must change in 'time'.

I'm feeling me again, strangely silent but glowing inside…..I know I've made it through.