Family life had its ups and downs and my schooling was an entertaining experience. Early on in life I began to figure that something wasn't quite right with the world. I became aware of the emotional upset that existed around me.

As time passed, I "fell into line", I began to express myself as society dictated. Although I wore the mask of a rebellious teenager, my inner-self was one of peace. When by myself I'd stare at the stars and in return they'd afford me with feelings of calmness and serenity....I felt at home with these feelings.

The clock ticks, family structure changed and I begin to find myself more. At this point, graffiti entered my world. Graffiti helped me to realise my creativity and how to express oneself to the masses. There was a core group of us that seemed to be growing together, when not painting, we'd sit around listening to music, smoking weed and debating verses from various books. The graffiti episode ended when a few of us were caught and some landed in jail...many of us went our separate ways only to meet up at a later date.

In 1989 a new energy was sweeping the globe and one of the manifestations of this energy was the dance-scene. Many of us partied to one theme, we danced to one tune, the tune was one of love. The mixing of the people, music and drugs caused many to experience new highs (and lows), much expansion went on as we began to get a taste of what harmony on this planet truly felt like. My personal feelings were ones of heart expansion and recognition. I began to see things differently, the barriers and the veils had begun to lift. Of course all was not plain sailing, when the raves were finished and normal life had to be adhered to, problems began to arise. It was evident most of us were living in two polarities, and as the years went on the scene changed, people changed, and I changed. Things came to a head when a friend over did it one night, and died. It caused many of us to re-think how we'd been acting.

During the months that followed I began to think intensely about everything. I began to re-evaluate all my experiences. I realise I've expanded and now need something more. I know I'm searching for something but I don't know what. I come to the conclusion that the feelings of euphoria and love that were felt in the rave days are our natural birthright, I start asking how I can experience these feelings as the 'norm'. The answer that came back was 'meditation' (or basically just a quieting of the mind). And so I began to meditate, just now and then at first. The more I meditated the easier life seemed to flow. I remember one particular session when I felt a certain feeling...it was a feeling of completeness, serenity, security with a tinge of euphoric bliss thrown in for good measure, that was it....that feeling won me over, it told me I was on the right track, and so I switched myself up a gear and decided to delve deeper into self.

A flow of study followed, books, meetings, dreams, heartaches, but deep within I always knew where all of this was leading. Those years opened my eyes to the realisation of a new world. In this realisation, a feeling of knowingness awoke my being to my reason for being here now. It all fitted perfectly. I re-remembered some space connections, I recalled some past life information, but more importantly I began to realise 'who I AM' and 'what I AM'. I began to reclaim my power back from those whom I'd so easily given it to, I began to clear my dominating issues and restrictions, I began to see through the eyes of the heart rather than those of the head. We are beings of the greatest magnificence and the greatest beauty that chose to adorn physical bodies to fulfil a new beginning, thus that is what we are doing and will continue to do until the day comes when this planet and all upon her shine like the multi-faceted jewel that we were carved out to be in the first place.